Not Done Learning

Its been almost two weeks since I took my big sister to the airport and said adios. And guess what? SHE COMES HOME TOMORROW! You have no idea how ready I am! Its been terribly lonely here without here. Yes, my family is here, but everyone else has jobs outside the home, and AH and I work together, at home. So with the person I spend most of my time with gone, I've been alone a lot. I'm thankful as I have had friends willing to come over at weird times and been able to spend time with old friends, friends that have been gone (look for a post about my Ginger friend soon! :)), and friends that I just love dearly. But some days nap time would roll around and the house would be still and quiet. The laundry done, dishes taken care of, dinner thought about and not much left for me to do. Its been good practice and a lot of fun taking care of multiple kids and a house and family, but when I'm a mom (and have my license!;)) I will take my kids out more because I have gone a tad crazy being cooped up. I was thankful for the Bible study we've had, and little things like going to the bank, or friends who picked me up for dinner. It was nice to get out!

So for as fun and challenging as these weeks have been, I'm glad to see them coming to a close. It's time for me to go back to normal.

I've learned though, that I still have a lot to learn. That although there were days I had everything done, I still had days that I didn't. I've learned that the people God has put around me for now, are the people I need the most: my family. I've learned that some days, you may go without exercise, lunch or a shower, but you can't go without time with Him. I've learned that I take for granted having my close stay looking nice and clean; and only having to clean the bathroom once a week... I've learned that things are just things. That if they end up with someone else, it doesn't matter; and that I have more to give than just things anyways. And I should freely give as He has freely given. I have learned not to worry. Not that I don't...I do, I've just relearned how important it is to not; I have learned that my worrying is telling God "I don't think you will provide for me." But He who has freely given all things will surely provide for me. If He can provide strength for the beasts of the field, He will surely provide for me. I have learned that I cannot do it all. And sometimes I need help. I have learned that biting my tongue and finding a sweet word help my days go better. I have found, that I am still under construction. That I am a masterpiece only just being started on.

"Wherever you are - be all there." -Jim Elliot